I know I sound weird, but I really want him to propose...?

Okay here's my story, me and my man fell inlove REALLY fast, I moved in with him I think a month after we started dating, and then he got me pregnant, and I had a miscariage, then I think after 4 months of being together we went to city hall and got married, he did tell me he still wants to do everything like propose, and the wedding, we just need to be better with money, and now its been a few months and now we are better with money, and we decided to just get a plane ring and then a year from now we'll get my dream ring, so I told him I wanted him to pick it out, and propose to me so I wouldnt expect it, because yeah idk thats the way I want it, and thats the way I always wanted to get proposed to, and he told me that it prolly wont happen anytime soon because I keep bringing it up, I just feel if it doesnt happen soon or something that the proposing and the wedding wont happen, and Idk it just saddens me to think like that, but Im not sure I think I am thinking about it too much and I just have to relax and it all will happen before I know it, I'd appreciate everyones comments, I think I just answered my question but I deffinately wouldnt mind some feedback so I dont feel crazy lol